「白癡!」這句改變我一生的話
2020年秋冬交替,這場人生馬拉松,我盡全力跑了半馬。在奔向下個轉角前,緩一口氣,我回頭去看過去的我──
那個在職場上披荊斬棘的我,大概是與我的身高不成正比、不服輸任性、膽大、直言的女子。
1990年,因為一個人的批評,塑就了今天的我。
初秋9月,一場活動的翌日,20位高層齊集會議,大老闆冷冷地質問:「Deborah,你有沒有讀過書?」 我整個人愣住,這情況始料未及。
「你有沒有默過書、有沒有背過書?」
我不知所措,一一回應:「有」。
「如果你有讀過書,你有背過書、默過書,那為甚麼你昨晚在台上的主持表現,像一個『白癡』一樣?」大老闆的話毫不留情。
場內,廿多雙眼盯看著我,這句「白癡」像一記火辣辣的耳光,狠摑臉上──前一夜在演台上的表現,像跑馬燈一樣閃過腦海:二、三千人面前,手拿稿子,意氣風發的我,還自以為表現出色,滿心歡喜的期待眾人的掌聲與讚美,想不到竟會落得如此下場。
眼淚已在眼眶中打轉,我眼前只有兩個選擇──當場辭職以示抗議,或者爭取機會,得以重生。假若離職,我將終身背負「白癡」這個名號,等同放棄為自己平反的機會,成為別人永遠的笑柄,我絕對要堅持下去!我要在哪裡跌到就在哪裡爬起來!我深吸一口氣,對大老闆說:「請再給我一次機會。」我要向所有人證明我不是白癡,我也能在台上好好表現。
下一場主持活動,訂在12月。
Very very beautiful story Deborah. Turning points are so super crucial..
When I was in high school, I was only known as the Mute. Someone who doesn’t speak, doesn’t know how to communicate, pants tugged in as high as my chest, ugly sense of fashion, thick glasses, ugly hairstyle, and most importantly, the best target for bullies. I wallet and money was always forcefully taken away from my bullies and I could not say anything. Couldn’t tell teacher as I was considered the Mute.
But when I went to the States, I decided that it’s time to change, no one will know the old me. I could start anew.
Fast forward today. I’m well known around the world for music, martial arts, sports and many other talents including speaking 6 languages. My fashionable clothes are fully sponsored. Not only I’m no longer a mute, I can make fish believe that they can live on land. Hehe.
老师的台上风格,我怕是一辈子也达不到您的高度!
感谢你的分享,把一次训斥当作一次鞭策! 优秀的人和普通人的一大区别就是他们如何面对挑战和逆境!